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No have been not lost have been sneaking around making few stops though not much time to comment but have been connecting in silent mode.

We marked two years and we are on the terrible twos apart from the usual boysim nothing major but life almost came to standstill when we dropped like a ripe mango from my mothers farm ooh that day I saw how fragile it is but we picked fast and we wre well soonest.

When we started I had the huge fear in my heart of if one day we shall fully expose ourselves out there. When we started the trips the confusion was it was a she as a mum I was not happy but was quick to correct its a He. Next question has refused to go however much I hate it everytime we out three times I will have to reply to it.

No he doesn't have any European blood neither does he have any non African blood he is pure African whats so hard to just let a kid grow without you bothering who he is. Its an innocent soul who doesn't know what races and bloodlines are.

PDPA-(Public Display of Parental Affection)- Am guilty. I know even other mothers will agree that this sometimes is unavoidable. When he wants to do it he never cares where he is or who is around. Been trying to limit it but for now I have to do what he demands to get.

Can someone please tell me what the obsession of men and a mum walking down with her child? Hello who said when its only the two of you means the third party is not there and that is just an avenue for someone to dish cards and beg for phone numbers and start warming up with your baby? Get a life people.

Am trying to be back here regularly have missed blogland in writing and commenting.. See you soonest...

This post was done in sleep and upon punching the keys its gone..
But will try..

Last year it has been a year full of tears, happy moments, desire to conquer, set backs and everything that life delivers.

The challenges have made me stronger than before. Have learned hard and painful lessons and have learned to fight for what is right for me.

Today am celebrating because God has walked me through His favours He has been faithful to me and seen me through it. When I wanted to give up, He lifted me and the fighting spirit in me and I rose to win the battle. His timing can never be right than it has been. Will glorify thy name.

Have had good shoulders to cry on. When I wanted to let the tears flow they held me can't count how many times have seen them sit through the sessions listening carefully and offering the best advise they could. Her and another they have been a blessing in my life. She was born here and the other one was born there and am more than grateful words cannot express much but if you dropped to read this know I celebrate you and the other.



Have learned that however wrong a decision is you can start a fresh. I know I might not be right on this I know I might not be pleasing anyone but am done with pleasing am done with doing what others want. This is my new beginning and like bean seeds have germinated and sprouts have sprung its my time I grow and bear my own fruits and enjoy the cold breeze the sunshine and even the insects.

To the wonderful friends mad love people just the thought that you there to give me a smile and lift my spirits. You wonderful and can't replace you with anything.

Happy Birthday to myself.....

Lest I be slapped with a bill for not paying debts let me brush off my DIL and GreamzHouse...

1. I have a strong spiritual life though sometimes I wander away I always find the path back to the fold thanks to early teaching from my mum and above all my grandfather who is a man of the cloth. All my teenage years have been active in church and accomplished several mission and am proud of the foundation I got.

2. I love water but not stagnant water so when you catch me in a swimming pool I will be at shallow end. Am a little fish though the last time I enjoyed a good dip was two years ago before SR.

3. I love my son nothing can come between me and him even his father knows. In him have learned a lot and at every step and stage I learn more. Its just another feeling which cannot be explained in him have seen my little self just as mum says and always appreciate him. Have already taken dowry thanks to her....

4. I have problem with building trust once one breaks it and every time I will find myself doubting and thinking its just another lie thus end up just breaking off any ties we might have had.

5. Am athletic and till today my mum and dad believes I can still run for this country. Have few trophies and certificates from school. I cant tell why but my heart still tells me I can do it of which am still in denial.

6. Am good at tracking down information or anything I might want to place my hands on. I wont need FBI or anyone but I will get it however long it might take and then will be at peace. Yeah am my own detective the next time you try anonymous calls I will get you.

7. I love the wild and getting dirty. I enjoy the environment and everything. Don't be surprised when you get me in shamba tilling and carrying heavy things I don't mind working myself and getting sweaty.

8. From looks I might scare you always been told I have a serious face but am easy to crack and get down with.

9. Family is family and if you get down to one trust we wont be in good terms. I love and adore that home and the way we have been brought up. Yeah ask my Sister In Law you cant win especially when it reaches to me. And you want to be hated touch one.

10. I enjoy my career but it has reached a point that I want to change. This is my passion but trying something new wont hurt a toe. Am in that stage where I can try something else for now.


Ok guess the tag went round long ago and was buried. tihihihihi....

After a long hiatus today am dusting off the walls the cobwebs the moths and butterflies aah yeah this is still my home and need to keep it clean.

What have been upto is a lot or even little but am glad and happy.
The famous saying of Nimetoka mbali (Have come from far) is just true.
Today I remembered the first time I sat on this blog and started talking about some pet of Tadpoles I was keeping then went down to the download being complete after which we celebrated and now we far have been appreciating each moment that God has given me.

Above all have two groups am so glad they are in my life. My Family and My friends yes why are you looking around you know yourselves I appreciate everything and all that you come with.

Have reached the point where I say No pressure: Don't give me pressure and am not planning on giving anyone pressure. Am loving my space and the freedom it comes with it. Yes picking whatever I feel is fine with me.

And at 22 months am celebrating SR sleeping through out the night and today am more thrilled because we have said goodbye to breast feeding.

As a mum have come to learn just like my doctor told me you will hear lost of advises and stories just stick to what you know is right. I faced many telling me I should have stopped him when he was a year at least. Others joked that he will be coming from school grabs a seat and demand his share. I said when the right time comes he shall stop by himself and recognize he is a big good boy. He just did and am so happy now that I don't have to worry when my top will be lifted as he searches for his share.

And with this I say am back to this land missed you great... And what did I miss kulikuwa na hausi na sijui. By the way there is census and I hear that weeknd no club will be open. Hata blog world census pia? Mad Love.....

Today I made a stop here.

Totally my mind been blank have been dream blogging or insomnia blogging those days when you put three posts in one night and the following morning you log in you dont have a clue of what to write about. That just says retirement time from blogging.

Let me go down memory lane and see what will bring me back. Just enjoying and relaxing.. A gal has had mad fun..

Pray I see you soonest...

Thank you D.I.L and Greamhouse for honouring me. Will lift my legs and work on that.

While you are at it can someone send me a control of chewing gums and chocolates because at this rate someone may sue me. While I dont like it he now has tricks of reaching them anywhere and can offer bribes to his cousin to help him get them out.